“ I Lost, Just so I could Gain”, It’s a contradicting metaphor….. but in life, things that contradict themselves are the things that end up having the most perplexing conclusion. I had to remind myself of that recently. I was questioning God, questioning myself, questioning everything around me because it felt as though I was losing everything, I felt as though everything was spiraling out of control, I felt betrayed by God, (to be honest). Then my spiritual conscience hit me in the face… hard. I had to ask myself, “Has God EVER let you down?” I had gotten so wrapped up into my own personal manajatwa (meaning… me, myself and I, not the s*xual reference), I had unintentionally lost focus of the dwelling that made me who I was, (the Son, the Holy Spirit and God). When that began to happen, I began to lose a lot of things that were near and dear to me. I didn’t lose material things, I lost more valuable assets like, my closeness with God, my peace of mind, my desire to love, my mental focus, my determination and my peace. God stripped me of those things to shake me into awareness. Now, I am back on track. God had to take all of those things to reconnect me to where I had to be, in his PRESENCE. In God’s presence is where we should all desire to be, there is peace there. So I lost, just to regain everything that I needed. To God... be the Glory.
Posted By: Shakeim Edmonds
Wednesday, March 28th 2012 at 4:35PM
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