BECAUSE MY WORD IS MY BOND...AND BECAUSE SOME ON BIA, "I" HAVE ALLOWED VERY DEEP INTO MY PERSONAL LIFE (LIKE

Irma at points in our life.... WE all get angry with people we tend to engage more with or develop a kindred association with.... I have allowed BIA to become close to me and I don't even know you people (smile) and of course we as humans disappoint each other... and we may distance ourselves a little... But I believe that there is good in everyone and sometimes... we have to nudge... encourage... show patience and understand... because everyone has a story... all of us are not the same... I am beginning to open up a little... Talk about my personal life changes... and how some of allowed me to grow and also how some are hindering my growth... BUT with time.. faith... and a little patience it'll work itself out....

I believe that there are going to be moments that we all.... each one of us will have a disagreement... but WE as adults can agree to disagree and let the other person know.... I tell you this... Everything will all fall into place.........

I know that there is a whole lot of hurt with all that's happened in the past few days... But shutting down isn't the answer nor solution.... uumm I don't know..

You haven't talked about Rachel today!! Well Im still growing and I rely on wisdom and yes age to help guide me along the path..

I was wandering what ENLIGHTENMENT she's provided which you can pass on to me..... How about that scandal.... that officials are offering jobs for politicians to keep them from running in elections... What a Mess... our president has to fight foreign diplomats... statesmen... and the oil chasers.... what's next???

Yeah and how bout those Gore's... I never read up on what happened... tell me... I know Rachel had something to say.... lol

Thank you so very much Cynthia..we all do what makes us happy at that time is my belief..."I" also believe that it is not my place to change someone elses behavior as only they can do this themselves...

My first duty to me and my being a winner in life is to remove all obsticals in my way and if I must change my behavior to accomplish this i do / I will...but survival is not taught or at least I believe it is one of our most basis instinct and, I certainly will never allow anyone to believe "I' need thier permission to be M-E...or thisa least is the way "I" look at this...

and why if "I" see my slef loosing my logical powers to do my thinking "I' know it is time past my taking my P-U-R-E "N" UP off of the public air waves...(smile)

I am just trying to show taht dialoguing can eleminate any need for war, hate, anger, missunderstandings ...I see this as the obsticle of telling me my purpose on the site is to ASK ME about me and not tel lme about me, IS THE WAY TO GO WITH ME...

I DON'T ASK ANYONE TO LIKE OR DISLIKE ME OR EVEN ALLOW ME ONTO YOUR BLOG OR TO COME ON MY BLOG, BUT, "I" DO DEMAND RESPECT, PERIOD!!!...YOU SEE THE ONLY PERSON "I" REALLY H-A-V-E TO LIVE WITH IS ME, because I take me with me where ever I go(SMILE)

AND, THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LOV...YOU COULD CHEER UP HELL IT SLEF. LOL

There are a few major short comings that we have as human beings...we are so busy talking about what the other PEOPLE DO / DON'T DO we too often fail to be able to see the individual...I guess much like that expression of how we can not see the forest for the trees.'...

I am sure we have met in our life time someone who can not listen because they can only listen to the sound of their own voices...

it is often times easier to talk at a person tahn to that person...

self-esteeme is not hard to show although we all have this power to respect and to love our ownselves...(smile)

but, this site is about learning and teaching as we can not grow with out having both...and to never allow ourselves to make any decision on onlyone resoecr...we are better oof if there are at least 3 and never ever forget or deny the past, because we are doomed to repeat it...

MIISREAL, i NOTICED YOU USED THE WORD " MOTHERWIT...SOMETING MY MOM ALWAYS USED ...THANKS FOR THAT REMINDER miisrael...

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# notice...any and all comments tat are posted to prove a persoanl need to stroke egos by way of proving "I" am not human because "I" do not have a brain in my body will not be deleted just ignored by me...

BUT SPEAK NOW OR FOREVER HOLD YOUR PEACE ABOUT WANTING TO KNOW WHAT IS WAS THAT "I" SAID BEHIND YOUR BACK...

THEREFORE PROVING MY CLAIMS OF THIS WAS ALL A FRAUD, CON TO GET BLOGGINGHOOD FOR J-E-N with the help of her straw man,roibert)ON BIA AT MY AND MY BEAUTIFUL, ALMOST PREFECT DAUGHTER'S EXPENSE...

(FOTFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

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mY SISTA FRIEND dR. aRTIS, "i" FEEL SO SLEFISH THAT i AM NEVER SAD WHEN i LEAARN OR CAN HELP TEACH. how to step into the other person's shoes...because when we do this this makes null and void right-wrong super ego one upmanship...

I nweve g againsta nyones self protections, never ever...I only reject any thing in my life that "I" do not invite intoit/ can not use it in my daily life...my life, my choice as i don't need any one permission to be ture to me...i am myown captain of my ship caalled life...i am all of my life's experiences the good, bad and all in between and "i" do look forwards to more of the same for many years to come...

I JUST WISH THERE WAS SOME WAY TO GET ONE TO UNDER STAND THAT I AM NOT UPSET WITH JEN...IT IS JEN'S CHOICE TO CHANGE WITH EVER COMMENT AND MY CHOICE TO TRY AND STICK WITH THE FACTS,,,TRUTH NEES NO SEFENSE...IF JEN IS UPSET THEN PLEASE NOTE SOME PEOPLE ARE HAPPY LIVNG IN CHOAS AND MISREY, ME, I AM ALL ABOUT BEING HAPPY AND STAYING OUT OF WHAT IN MY BUDDHIST PRACTICE CALLS THE LOWER 4 WORLDS...I HAVE POSTED THES ON TEH SITE BEFORE AND MAYBE WILL DO THIS AGOIN...

BUT, THERE IS NO ONE OR THING OR PLACE TAHT I BELIEVE IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH FOR ME TO LIE OR TO CAUSE ANY HARM TOMY FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS, ENTIONALLY...BUT I CAN NOT LIVE FOR OR LIVE BY ANY OTHER'S RULES THAT WILL MAKE THEM HAPPY, SAFE OR IN PEACE AT MY EXPENSE...

MY LIFE, MY CHOICE. ..SEE YOU AT OUR NEXT PARTY IN D,C. LOL (SMILE) AND DOC. ARE YOUOUT OF SCHOOL YET FOR THE SUMMER OR ARE YOU GOING TO GO TO SUMMER SCHOOL?...

hONEY,you know I will not miss rachael...her program tinigh was live from Louisiana and she backed the sista in congress on demanding that Bp show the money spent on the research they keep saying this was what they were doing with all of those $billions and $$$$$$billions of profits they got from rainig record prices at the pump almost every week..oh and I watched the president in an interview with Larry King and A.C 360...all bout show us the money or these will be added to those alreay in progress charges...

Did you hear on Olbermann how bush has just in a colsed private speech admited he allowe people to be tortured...T-O-R-T-U-R-E-D...THE QUESTION NOW IS IF THERE WILL BE A REPUBLICAN PARTY LEFT AFTER NOV.

THIS OIL SPILL HAS GOT EVEN THE PEOPLE IN THE TEAPARTY CALLING FO RC-H-A-N-G-E...(SMILE)

OH, OVER THERE ON THE FOX NETWORK THEY ARE NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT THE OIL SPILL AT ALL EXCEPT NOT ON THER PROGRAMS WITH THERI LEADING ANCHORS...AGAIN CHANGE...

PH AND OUT HERE NO ONE DEMOCRAT RUNNING FOR GOVERNOR OR THE SENAT AHS RUN ONE AD...THSE REPUBLICAN MILLIONAIRS AND BILLIONAIRS ARE LOOSING ALONG WITH THEIR PERSONAL BANK ROLLS RUNNING THEIR CAMPAIGNS AND THEY ARE LOOSINGLIKE MAD...CHANGE...(SMILE)

NOW ALL OF THAT CAME FORM THE MENTION OF MY GIRL'S NAME.otflmao) ...

No and I guess it is because she is the anchor with all of tose college degrees and ohds tha tunlsee the private personal okves of the political world does not impact directly on the main street citizens she has nothing to say about this thnags. (smile)

I did love her two days of live broadcast taling about the natural lands more tahn actual peoples and tonight A.C.380 talked with survivors of the rig explosion...these peole are still living aht living night maer...

I know there are two ways I have always not wanted to die...by fire or by water. Me I can't even phanthom having both at the same time as these men did.And on top of all else they must be suffering from the guilt of bein alove while their friends and co -workers died that day. (smile)