AND, YES I OWE YOU AN EXPLINATION AS TO WHERE I HAVE BEEN...MY HUSBAND OF 45 YEARS WAS GIVEN 2 OT 3 MONTHS TO
I WAS JUST IN A PLACE WHERE I REFUSED TO ALLOW ANY DISRESPECT TO ANY ONE IN MY RACE OR THE HUMAN RACE AT THAT TIME...INTO MY DAILY LIFE...
YES, I MISSED YOU ALL AND YOU WERE NEVER FAR FROM MY TOUGHTS AT ANY TIME...
LOV YA A-L-L...(SMILE)

So sorry to hear of your husband's illness and death.
You don't owe anybody an explanation.