"As A Survivor"

"As A Survivor"

As a survivor sometimes the memories flood my mind
then my eyes began to cry...
So many tears remembering the lost years.
Yet not tears of pain and anguish,
but tears of no longer living in fear
or wishing I'd somehow vanish.
Disappear off of the face of the earth,
not feeling as if my life had any worth.
Yes I recall the hell very well...
I've grown now!!!
Thank God I made it cuz I have a story to tell...
It may save a life or open some eyes
maybe even get some to realize
it don't matter about the why's and how's
just be there when she's down, tired and had her last straw
and really needs a helping hand to find her way out!!!

As a survivor I feel so blessed,
cuz some of my sistah's didn't make it out of that mess...
Alive or in one piece
So many lives lost or changed forever.
Yet not lives lost in vain or without memories
but lost to move on to where they'll have lasting love and better
especially everlasting peace.
Yet not live always changed for the worst
Some grow, move on and find their inner worth
Tranquility beyond belief,
Finding that with God there is relief.
Yes I recollect their existence or experiences very well...
I am she and she is me!!!
Thank God I made it, cuz in their memory
or involvement the story I must tell!!!
It may change the heart of a man who chooses to abuse,
knowing in the end he'll only lose
the respect of the world and how he's looked upon
for deciding to raise his hand in anger and use
another human being as his pawn.

As a survivor I vow to always have a listening ear
for those who haven't yet learned that
they don't have to live in fear...
I'll always lend a helping hand
or encouraging words of advice,
cuz the 10th time may very well be the time
that she decides to listen and develop a master plan
to get out using all of her womanly devices.

After all...
As a survivor
"I Am She & She Is Me"!!!

Ta'Nisha G.
Feb. 2, © 2009
4:14 a.m.